c'est ma vie

my life

Wed, 15 May 2013 22:37:58 -0400

I’m ready to move on. I really, truly am ready. Except…. I won’t be able to handle it once you’ve completely moved on… unless I have someone else in my life that I can love.

That’s confusing. The past 2.5 years of my life have been confusing and I’m ready to be excited about love again.

In other news,

Wed, 15 May 2013 01:00:34 -0400

colorblind-opinions:

I’m going to die this Thursday when The Office ends.

I’ve watched this show for so long and I’ve learned some of life’s biggest lessons from it.
Don’t even get me started on Jim and Pam’s relationship.

All I know is that everyone deserves a Jim Halpert.

^^ THIS

And, the fact that even Michael Scott can find the perfect compliment in a partner means that I will be fine, and I’ll find my perfect fit some day.

I hate everything about my life.

Sun, 07 Apr 2013 00:31:51 -0400

I hate everything about my life.

Out of the fire and into the fire again You make me want to forget and start all over Here I come...

Thu, 14 Mar 2013 23:27:00 -0400

Out of the fire and into the fire again

You make me want to forget and start all over

Here I come straight out of my mind or worse

Another chance to get burned and start all over

I’m gonna start all over

Fantastic and romantic, all a big surprise

You’ve got the warning hesitation pushed aside

It’s sooner than I want but you caught my heart

I guess I’m ready now to start… I’m gonna start all over.

If you claim me, I would gladly claim you.

Wed, 13 Mar 2013 23:58:55 -0400

Is this real life? Is this about to happen? Why do I have a gut feeling that things are about to...

Mon, 04 Mar 2013 15:45:57 -0500

Is this real life? Is this about to happen?

Why do I have a gut feeling that things are about to change a little bit…?

I’m not going to resist the change if it is, in fact, impending.

mon dieu

Fri, 15 Feb 2013 23:23:49 -0500

This new bag I want is $1400, I know that’s kind of irrational, but I really really really really want it

Help us Grant a Wish!!

Fri, 15 Feb 2013 22:50:59 -0500

Help us Grant a Wish!!:

mysacredthings:

My chapter of Chi Omega is less than $1000 away from granting a wish to a child in the Charlotte area who is suffering through a life-threatening medical condition.

Every wish costs $6000 and our small chapter of 40 girls has worked hard for years and years to get this close!

Any little bit helps - please help us change the life of a sweet child!!

my valentine's

Thu, 14 Feb 2013 21:20:08 -0500

-Babysitting for the cutest little girl ever

-In extreme amounts of pain due to throat swelling… unable to eat but I’m not complaining about that part…

-Plenty of Valentines {kids at the gym…} But I only have about half of a boyfriend. I’ve had half a boyfriend for a year now and I probably won’t get to see or do anything with him until 2015 due to our busy schedules.

-Googling this throat and neck pain is scaring me.

-I just want to sleep forever

"I used to be such a burning example, I used to be so original. I used to care, I was being cared..."

Mon, 04 Feb 2013 19:01:05 -0500

“I used to be such a burning example,
I used to be so original.
I used to care, I was being cared for.
Made sure I showed it to those that I love.”

sratplease: Chi Omega raises money for Make A Wish This is my...

Mon, 04 Feb 2013 16:51:53 -0500

sratplease:

Chi Omega raises money for Make A Wish

This is my chapter! I think I actually took this picture…

so, um

Mon, 04 Feb 2013 00:51:19 -0500

I’m pretty sure my life is at the lowest point since May of 2011.

If I can get through this semester then I can get through almost anything.

I hate what I am dealing with right now and it sucks that I am not strong enough to move on.

is this real life?

Sat, 02 Feb 2013 00:30:40 -0500

Am I really, seriously considering getting plastic surgery right now? Did I really just pick my desired surgeon based on the design of his website {which was quite impressive}?

Why am I so excited about this right now? My life…

dreams

Fri, 11 Jan 2013 09:38:05 -0500

I never believed people when they said that certain food or drink could cause more prolific or detailed dreams/nightmares. I believe them now. Alcohol intake {at almost any level} makes my dreams SO realistic and narrative-like.

Last night, I had 2 dreams. The first was about my secret crush {since Freshman year, omg} and how he left his current girlfriend for me. Sounds boring to the common folk but there were lots of intricate details and the dream only spanned one day, so it felt real. I even woke up this morning and checked his FB page just to see if it was real or not. Unfortunately it was just a dream. It’s ok though. I’ll live.

Second dream was about my family going to see a Spiderman flick at the movies, and about 2 minutes into the film, people emerged from the back and announced that we were the lucky theater who gets to pre-screen the next American blockbuster superhero film. They gave us a catered meal and we got to watch the new film before anyone else. I woke up from that one looking around for my plate of food that I fixed myself at the screening.

Moral of the story, I dream of my secret crush leaving his girlfriend for me and I also dream about surprise film screenings and fixing plates of food. MY LIFE…..

"High and dry, and out of the rain, it’s so easy to hurt others when you can’t feel pain."

Tue, 08 Jan 2013 09:44:26 -0500

“High and dry, and out of the rain, it’s so easy to hurt others when you can’t feel pain.”

- Hall and Oates

article about racist words americans use

Sun, 06 Jan 2013 09:33:22 -0500

Hip Hip Hooray

How it’s Used:

“We won the little league game! Hip hip hooray!”

What You’re Actually Saying:

“We won the little league game! Let’s go kill some Jews!”

What a drastic difference.

dream a little dream

Thu, 03 Jan 2013 08:50:00 -0500

I had a dream that he and I were at a bar and we got in a fight, so we split off. I went to a group of my sisters and he went to another girl and flirted with her, touched her hands and hair, etc. I jealously watched him from afar while my girlfriends were having drinks and I didn’t drink at all. Then, I got up and approached the girl and proceeded to throw insults at her until she couldn’t take it anymore and left. Then he and I made out, and made up. Oh, then I went to the bar to have a drink and they gave me a shot of Amaretto instead of an Amaretto Sour, and I was like, “You don’t take shots of Amaretto…” and I had to tell them how to make my own drink.

Moral of the dream: I’m a bitch and a control freak.

Lovely.

thesecretmichan: #cries because I have inappropriate crushes on older married men

Tue, 01 Jan 2013 21:16:02 -0500

thesecretmichan:

#cries because I have inappropriate crushes on older married men

new year's resolutions ; 2013

Tue, 01 Jan 2013 19:56:00 -0500

Ok, so I have a new tradition of posing a vague and ambiguous FB status of a resolution and then I elaborate in great detail on tumblr. Last year was “Be a better me.” This year, “Work hard. Have fun. No drama.”

However……I’m a goal setter. Therefore, I must set some resolutions for the next 364 days.

Have more fun. I know that seems stupid but I mean it. More karaoke, more nights out, dinner and drinks, bowling, picnics, I don’t even care. I just need more fun in my life.
If things don’t get better by May, get him the hell out of my life. I know this seems harsh, but I have spent 2 years letting ONE guy control my happiness when it relates to love and relationships. This rocky road is driving me insane and quite frankly, if he doesn’t get his act together soon, I have to move on completely. I give all of myself to someone who can’t even give me a phone call back over winter break.
Eat healthier and grocery shop more. Believe me, I love to order D5 from my chinese place more than almost anything. I’ve been eating takeout way too much lately, to the point where I am a “regular” at multiple places. They know to put extra sauce in my bag. Not cutting it for me. I have all of these wonderful appliances and a bit of knowledge about cooking and it all goes to waste.
Have more pride in the way my apartment looks. This includes general cleanliness and also the decor, because I can’t get my act together to put up art in this damn place. I am so non committal with home decoration and it drives me insane.
Speaking of the apartment, another goal is to STAY in the apartment for another year. As of late, my parents have told me that they are going to cut the amount that they allocate towards my expenses because my sister is moving out of the dorms too. I need to stay in this apartment, ALONE. I can’t do roommates anymore and I love where I live.
Save $XX,XXX in the bank. I know what numbers fill the Xs {All of them, more of them? Only I know…} I have saved half of that number now in one year and I’m on track to accomplish this goal by 2014 for sure.
Get a raise, get a promotion, or get the hell out. I have done the same job for 4 years. I know what I am doing and I’m good at it. Unfortunately, I am not terribly fond of the way my owners conduct business at my current job because they don’t place enough value on longevity and compensation. I know what my time is worth and I have had plenty of people tell me I could be making at least $4-7 more per hour to do other jobs that I’d probably enjoy more. We’ll see. I know that I was just honored with an award from the company but it’s getting to that point where I need to make some big decisions.
Get my heath in check. I need to schedule so many appointments and it’s been far too long. I have been physically healthy these past few months but general checkups need to be conducted soon.
Keep shopping to keep me sane. I am a huge believer in Retail Therapy. I get a high off of shopping sometimes. I have the discretionary income to do it and it makes me happy, so why not? I have purchased some quality items lately and I need to continue.
Be more optimistic and make more friends who get me out of my shell. I really do love people {in general} even though I’m cooped up in my place most of the time. I just need people to push me out of my shell. I’m a shy person who is also incredibly outgoing in the right circumstances.

Well, there that is. I know this is long. Forgive me for hogging your feed but tumblr is the only place where I can type freely like this.

settledown-easy: I just want to tell you to fuck off so badly.

Tue, 01 Jan 2013 12:55:43 -0500

settledown-easy:

I just want to tell you to fuck off so badly.